How do I change my life so that I will no longer say "I will do this later, I am not old enough now"?
I feel as though I will lose a big part of my life if I keep being so mild, so docile when it comes to what I want. Truth be told, I am terrified one day I will wake up and see that I have not done any of the things I dreamt of doing. I mean do I really want to be a politician? Do I want that life, filled with official meetings, interviews, lies, corruption and stress?
I wish I knew what I wanted to do besides traveling and descovering the world, because I do not know what type of job that is. I guess my idea of politics and me together had something to do with an embassy somewhere exotic and remote, somewhere with great weather, where I can attend elaborate parties and entertain handsome officials from all over the world with my fantastic stories about critical situations in Cuba or funny details about a man trying to build a temple out of all his memories ( that man would be me but i thought men were better with mixing ciment).
I am scared of what I truly want, because what I want can only be attained through war, a war against too many cruel people for me to win by myself. Now, I'm not sure about politics, everyone wants to be in power, the difference is that they would be willing to do much more to reach their goal. I want something else, but what that something else is I do not know.
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